a different perspective

This has been adapted for aethiests here:

How To Be Blessed by Love: 6 Clear Steps Backed by the Universe 

Have you ever wondered how to be blessed by Love? Many people ask, “What do I have to do to experience God’s or the universe's blessings in my life?” Fortunately, The Universe gives us a very clear roadmap. God’s or the universe's blessings are not random—they are available to all who pay attention....

Here are six steps to unlocking the blessings of God or Love in your life.

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Step 1: Be Filled with the Holy Spirit

The first step to receiving God’s blessings is to be Spirit-filled. This doesn’t mean an emotional experience; it means that the Holy Spirit has come to live inside you through your listening.

“However, you are not in the flesh but in the Spirit, and indeed the Spirit of God dwells in you. 

All believers can feel the Holy Spirit at all times.

 There is no such thing as a consciousness who does not possess the Holy Spirit.  

a person can expect to receive God’s covenant blessings as long as they listen and pay attention! If you do so, the blessings that flow through a believer will spill over to the nonbelievers....

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Step 2: Be a Believer

God’s blessings & the Universe's blessings are for ALL.

A nonbeliever will benefit from “spillover” blessings... the full measure of universe'’s blessing is available to all. 

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Step 3: Confess and Turn From Sin

Unconfessed sin is a spiritual roadblock. Even believers can miss out on life's daily blessings if they refuse to pay attention, have acceptance, having awareness, to be allowing, or if they fail to have appreciation!

God will not bless a believer who knowingly walks in sin without repentance. The only sin there is, is to judge or blame. 

True repentance is not merely feeling sorry. It’s turning away from judging and walking toward kindness and compassion.

If a person continues in a lifestyle of repeated, continual judging, such a sign usually indicates the person is actually a nonbeliever.

“If we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness” (1 John 1:9).

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Step 4: Put Love First in Everything

 Love exists in all areas: finances, time, relationships.....

“Call upon the LOVE within you in your moments of distress."

Whatever area of your life you want God to bless, surrender it to LOVE fully.

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Step 5: Use Your Gifts to Serve Others

Every believer has been given spiritual gifts—not to hide or waste—but to serve and build up others in the Body of Love.

“As each one has received a special gift, employ it in serving one another as good stewards of the manifold grace of God or Love or the Universe  or if your Higher Self .. 

Whoever speaks, is to do so as one who is speaking the utterances of God; whoever serves is to do so as one who is serving by the strength which God supplies; so that in all things God may be glorified through Love, to whom belongs the glory and dominion forever and ever. Amen (adapted from 1 Peter 4:10–11, NASB).

When you use your gifts for others, you’re walking in the very purpose God created you for..

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Step 6: Share Love with the Lost

God’s heart is for the lost.

 Sharing love isn’t optional. It’s a command.

“Go therefore and give love to all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age” (adapted from Matthew 28:19-20, NASB).

When you partner with God’s mission, His blessings follow. You become part of something eternal.

“Your word is a lamp to my feet And a light to my path” (Psalm 119:105).

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Bonus Truth: God’s Word Still Applies Today

 God is alive, active, and eternally relevant within all of us!

“God is living and active, and piercing as far as the division of soul and spirit, of both joints and marrow, and able to judge the thoughts and intentions of the heart” (adapted from Hebrews 4:12).

“So will My word be which goes forth from My mouth; It will not return to Me empty, Without accomplishing what pleases Me, And without succeeding in the matter for which I sent it” (Isaiah 55:11).

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One More Thing: Salvation Is Where It All Begins

If God asked you, “Why should I let you into heaven?” the honest answer is, “You shouldn’t.” Why? All are worthy. All are born sinners. Both are true.

Salvation is by grace through faith. 

God gives both (Ephesians 2:8–9). It’s not about your works, your efforts, or even your baptism. It’s about choice and mercy.

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Watch Out for False Teachers

false teachers who would lead people astray are those who practice exclusion and judgement.

 Those who limit gods love are the false teachers .

You need discernment and truth to stay protected. Allow love to flow & flow!.

Final Encouragement

God is not hiding His blessings from you. He wants you to walk in them. He’s already given you His Word to guide your path. You need but listen within..

“Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path” (Psalm 119:105).

If you’re ready to live a life blessed by God, start with these six steps—and watch what happens when you walk in love.

 

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start with listening to the love within you ...

We help people understand the saving grace of love and its eternal significance. 

Many believe their past makes Heaven impossible—but salvation is a free gift, available to all who accept love, repent, and proclaim love to all!

Ephesians 2:8-9 (NASB) declares: “For by grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God; not as a result of works, that no one should boast.”

Only love & compassion can save you. No pastor, no ritual, no baptism—nothing you do, no matter how many good works or money you donate, can earn Salvation. 

Salvation is the gift of loving!

“Truly, no man can redeem his brother; He cannot give to God a ransom for him— For the redemption price for their soul is costly, And it ceases forever— That he should live on eternally, That he should not see corruption” (Psalm 49:7-10 LSB).

No one can lose their salvation. Jesus said in John 10:28-29 (LSB), “and I give eternal life to them, and they will never perish—ever; and no one will snatch them out of My hand. My Father, who has given them to Me, is greater than all; and no one is able to snatch them out of the Father’s hand.”

the truth of the matter - I just want your money

But in exchange , my family and I will provide you a safe place for you to be you, to be accepted and allowed for you to be you just as we make a safe place for us to be us.

Call us, get your credit card approved: 18003209643

If the voicemail is working, let us know best time to call you back.

If it isn't working I will attempt to call your number back later that day if you credit card was approved...

one of my dating profiles June 2026

5 2, brunette who is not interested in you for hugs or love but only interested in you for the money you can provide our family in exchange for your having an ultimate safe place for you to be you!

Feel good about being you!

I'd like you to feel empowered by your connection to me

But this profile will weed out most of you:

I am not for most people on here.. (only the folks who can see my potential & magic underneath will benefit)

I am a mix - sometimes more like an independent cat , and other times more like a hyper puppy dog, too full of joy ...

 

At all times, I keep around me an elderly Grandmother (whom I must be available to 24/7) and an offspring who kindly opted to stick around to help me to halfway function. You will probably like them wayyyy more than you will like me (lol)..

How I judge a person is in how you treat other people - especially in how you treat my family..  if my family members like you, I will probably tolerate you..(lol, though, It won't take much for them to like you though - share fruit or nuts & ma will love you.  OR participate in a project our own way, and kiddo will probably respect you.)

But, .... 

only a select few from this site will ever ...

only a select few from this site will ever have the potential to become close friends

Sometimes I am humble, but I have high standards - my family & I , we seemingly accept all, but I tend to judge the judgers...  

I also tend to not have much patience for impatient people.. lol. The irony of that, lol...

My family & I, We are also simple folks, yet also massively complicated ...

We are the kind of people who are saving up for an aircrete machine that would allow kiddo & I  to build the structures we desire to create, and for the fancy microscope and recording tech to record ALL of life

Here's the part the people on this site really dont like - i am saving that special part of myself until I have achieved my dreams in life. Until I accomplish my goals, I am celibate. Sorry. But thank you for reading this far, lol

Until last year, we had an urban regenerative food forest oasis space with a biophilic feel to it which you might appreciate - our goal is to one day get that space back that we want to do this project on - perhaps after that point, highest chance to be able to break through my celibacy....

But to have chance even then, id probably only consider someone who was a close friend of the family.  

Though, being friends with us in itself will open the doors to many benefits to you -- Being friends with my family & I is one the best gifts you could ever give yourself - regardless of whatever relationship you might get to have with me..Whether we be simple friends or if we become something more..

Yes, I have tons of  flaws, .. tons and tons. You will find me strange. 

But our existence will do more for you than anyone else you have ever met.

We will appreciate your idiosyncrasies....

You will need to be okay with how my family & I always make a 'digital synthetic memory' to go with the analog memory of every moment  -- as sadly, after caring for so many with mental dementia, we now know just how fragile human memory minds can be, and how much human perspective hampers actual memory. 

So, We are learning how to have a symbiosis with technology to enhance the super frail humans ability to remember the details of life.

 We will travel with you anywhere you would like to go -- but only if you are okay with my ENTIRE immediate family coming too. (Elderly mother n offspring) ..

I care for my mother full time -- so, if you need me to go somewhere, my family must be allowed to travel with me .

I am well aware of how strange & odd this all may seem to others.

I understand i am a bit unordinary, or outside of normal. 

But, You will find this is to your benefit!!

with a little bit of open-mindedness, and acceptance of my strange, unique ways of accepting, tolerance and patience, 

we can bring much joy & connection & well-being to you.

Much potential to bring to you if you are open to this super healing friendship...

I apologize for really not being open to a romantic relationship right now.. and for only looking for people okay with just simple friendships....

I'm looking for

Men / Women

(Age 36-60+)

All you need is tons of patience 

& to be allowing....

 If you share your own photo , do not expect a response for 48 hrs before I respond ..

(i require patience  - like taffy.. if you try to rush or be impatient with anything, I will respond just like taffy does)

If you want private photos, then you are more likely to get them if you explain what aspect of the profile caught your eye.

Heads up, this will weed out most of the rest of you  - I am staying celibate and only looking for just simple friendships until we have ensured that our dream even has half a chance and is safe & protected. 

Life is scary,  so I would need to know that my goals are secure,   and that our goals will continue, even if anything happens to myself, my elderly mother or my offspring.

Grateful to those who encourage celibacy until all connections feel safe and while we wait to feel more secure and safe...bc I know that is very very rare

. The world seem to discourage people being friends only,

 yet having the strength of that friendship does add so much more to ones life.

I try to practice compassion, and empathetic active listening to the world around us & to ourselves.

The goal is  to learn to live in symbiotic harmony with you , ourselves, and the earth we live on,  caring about people care, earth care, future care - Living in symbiotic harmony in a biophilic way.

Rejuvenating the soil & earth & our connections as beings all around us & inside of us.

Upon reading this , may you do a nice longggggg. stretch ----- lengthening your spinal cord and opening up to all the beauty in the universe.  

Purrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrryummmmmmmm.

Much love

- the garden angel

Blessed be our mind-body connection to each other , ourselves & the world around us.

Much patience & compassion be with you, please.

Humble gratitude. 

Thank you. 🙏

Just out of curiosity - for folks out of town or who don't live next to us in the city, what would be your thoughts about having a virtual dinner or coffee with my family and I over a video chat?  Does that sound appealing or no? Would that get any needs met for anyone? Anyways, was just curious? Wanted to get a feel for other folks feelings on this idea? I like the idea, but not sure if anyone else would be interested?

Lol

So real fast, before I share my photos, please save you and I both some time please and let me know if you are actually okay with what I wrote in my profile?

Please let me know if you have actually read my profile and if you are actually okay with the parts which mentions my celibacy, how I care for mom full time 24/7 (which means I must always have family around me 24/7 no exceptions), and how I record all of life? 

 I am on here for friendship and to find people I can slowly open myself up to connect to over time as I learn to trust that you are willing to truly accept me as I am and as you learn that I truly accept you as you are.

I am here to see you just as you are and to accept you just as you are.  

With the same request back from you.

To move forward with the conversation, Are you okay with How I am only available to accept you,  inspire you and encourage you in life? That that is all that I am capable of providing right now.

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Some college

Social drinker

Non smoker

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White / Caucasian

Personal Care and Lifestyle Service

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About Me

Feel good about being you! I'd like you to feel empowered by your connection to me But this profile will weed out most of you: I am not for most people on here.. (only the folks who can see my potential & magic underneath will benefit) I am a mix - sometimes more like an independent cat , and other times more like a hyper puppy dog, too full of joy ... At all times, I keep around me an elderly Grandmother (whom I must be available to 24/7) and an offspring who kindly opted to stick around to help me to halfway function. You will probably like them wayyyy more than you will like me (lol).. How I judge a person is in how you treat other people - especially in how you treat my family.. if my family members like you, I will probably tolerate you..(lol, though, It won't take much for them to like you though - share fruit or nuts & ma will love you. OR participate in a project our own way, and kiddo will probably respect you.) But, .... only a select few from this site will ever ...

only a select few from this site will ever have the potential to become close friends

Sometimes I am humble, but I have high standards - my family & I , we seemingly accept all, but I tend to judge the judgers...  

I also tend to not have much patience for impatient people.. lol. The irony of that, lol...

My family & I, We are also simple folks, yet also massively complicated ...

We are the kind of people who are saving up for an aircrete machine that would allow kiddo & I to build the structures we desire to create, and for the fancy microscope and recording tech to record ALL of life

Here's the part the people on this site really dont like - i am saving that special part of myself until I have achieved my dreams in life. Until I accomplish my goals, I am celibate. Sorry. But thank you for reading this far, lol

Until last year, we had an urban regenerative food forest oasis space with a biophilic feel to it which you might appreciate - our goal is to one day get that space back that we want to do this project on - perhaps after that point, highest chance to be able to break through my celibacy....

But to have chance even then, id probably only consider someone who was a close friend of the family.  

Though, being friends with us in itself will open the doors to many benefits to you -- Being friends with my family & I is one the best gifts you could ever give yourself - regardless of whatever relationship you might get to have with me..Whether we be simple friends or if we become something more..

Yes, I have tons of flaws, .. tons and tons. You will find me strange. 

But our existence will do more for you than anyone else you have ever met.

We will appreciate your idiosyncrasies....

You will need to be okay with how my family & I always make a 'digital synthetic memory' to go with the analog memory of every moment -- as sadly, after caring for so many with mental dementia, we now know just how fragile human memory minds can be, and how much human perspective hampers actual memory. 

So, We are learning how to have a symbiosis with technology to enhance the super frail humans ability to remember the details of life.

 We will travel with you anywhere you would like to go -- but only if you are okay with my ENTIRE immediate family coming too. (Elderly mother n offspring) ..

I care for my mother full time -- so, if you need me to go somewhere, my family must be allowed to travel with me .

I am well aware of how strange & odd this all may seem to others.

I understand i am a bit unordinary, or outside of normal. 

But, You will find this is to your benefit!!

with a little bit of open-mindedness, and acceptance of my strange, unique ways of accepting, tolerance and patience, 

we can bring much joy & connection & well-being to you.

Much potential to bring to you if you are open to this super healing friendship...

I apologize for really not being open to a romantic relationship right now.. and for only looking for people okay with just simple friendships....

......

All you need is tons of patience & to be allowing.... 

 If you share your own photo , do not expect a response for 48 hrs before I respond .. (i require patience - like taffy.. if you try to rush or be impatient with anything, I will respond just like taffy does)

 If you want private photos, then you are more likely to get them if you explain what aspect of the profile caught your eye.

 Heads up, this will weed out most of the rest of you - I am staying celibate and only looking for just simple friendships until we have ensured that our dream even has half a chance and is safe & protected.

 Life is scary, so I would need to know that my goals are secure, and that our goals will continue, even if anything happens to myself, my elderly mother or my offspring.

 Grateful to those who encourage celibacy until all connections feel safe and while we wait to feel more secure and safe...bc I know that is very very rare .

 The world seem to discourage people being friends only, yet having the strength of that friendship does add so much more to ones life.

 I try to practice compassion, and empathetic active listening to the world around us & to ourselves. 

 The goal is to learn to live in symbiotic harmony with you , ourselves, and the earth we live on, caring about people care, earth care, future care - Living in symbiotic harmony in a biophilic way. Rejuvenating the soil & earth & our connections as beings all around us & inside of us. 

 Upon reading this , may you do a nice longggggg. stretch ----- lengthening your spinal cord and opening up to all the beauty in the universe.

 Purrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrryummmmmmmm. Much love - the garden angel

 Blessed be our mind-body connection to each other , ourselves & the world around us. 

 Much patience & compassion be with you, please. Humble gratitude. Thank you. 🙏 

 Just out of curiosity - for folks out of town or who don't live next to us in the city, what would be your thoughts about having a virtual dinner or coffee with my family and I over a video chat? Does that sound appealing or no? 

Would that get any needs met for anyone? Anyways, was just curious? Wanted to get a feel for other folks feelings on this idea? 

I like the idea, but not sure if anyone else would be interested?

 Lol So real fast, before I share my photos, please save you and I both some time please and let me know if you are actually okay with what I wrote in my profile? Please let me know if you have actually read my profile and if you are actually okay with the parts which mentions my celibacy, how I care for mom full time 24/7 (which means I must always have family around me 24/7 no exceptions), and how I record all of life?

 I am on here for friendship and to find people I can slowly open myself up to connect to over time as I learn to trust that you are willing to truly accept me as I am and as you learn that I truly accept you as you are. I am here to see you just as you are and to accept you just as you are. With the same request back from you.

 To move forward with the conversation, Are you okay with How I am only available to accept you, inspire you and encourage you in life? That that is all that I am capable of providing right now.

To contact me & my family, please call 

1-800-320-9643

Female

Some college

Social drinker

Non smoker

1

White / Caucasian

Personal Care and Lifestyle Service

we lost our home, need help raising up money

Our home of over 55yrs was lost. We lost our share of the home. We lost our home. Were we scammed? Were we taken advantage of? Maybe?

However it happened, it happened. It's done now

Now we need help to survive.  Instead of being the victim we want to help you and help us learn how to thrive.

In order to raise up money both to live and survive on and to recoup the losses, 

We are offering an assortment of bodymind listening season packages with a money back guarantee as long as asked for by end of first day and as long as you were willing to do a video explaining what we need to work on that we then will have permission to share publicly if we feel inclined to do so..

$300 bodymind listening session - 12 hrs

Texts plus virtual sessions throughout day either by phone or zoom, your choice..

$500 bodymind listening session - 24hrs

Text plus in-person session while spending time with our family (in person session can be anywhere from 20 mins to 5hrs total - your choice)

$1200 bodymind listening session 

Texts plus virtual sessions throughout day either by phone or zoom, your choice for 5 days

$5000 bodymind to listening session 

Text plus in-person session while spending time with our family (in person session can be anywhere from 20 mins to 3hrs per day - your choice) for one week.

To qualify you must send a nonrefundable prerequisite $20 fee to PayPal.biz/profile/krineteagle

     Cash.app/$krineteagle 

When you pay the fee, please leave your contact information and the service you are requesting (we also offer other services as well including design consultantin, holistic life coaching emphasing emphasis on nutrition & physical fitness, soil & foodforest consultantions, and AI help)

Or be an ongoing member of one of our platform communities:

patreon.com/kee

Skool.com/keecommujity-4557

Nas.io/krineteagle 

All sessions are recorded, 

and all sessions are with our whole family.. the only way you may have my own personal services is if my family is allowed to be there with me.

I will not be in a space alone without my family and/ or without the recorders on.  This must be understood before hand.

If you would like a per minute option:

Feel free to call 1800-320-9643 and leave a message of best time for us to call you back.

Thank you 

March 18, 2023, nope make that March 18, 2026

Be Our Hero!

GiveSendGo/HopingforaGarden

keep envisioning that somehow either someone hears what we want to do with our home to help others and helps us to save it/ buy it back from the folks who bought our family's home of over 60 years from my ex. -- that somehow they have been prevented or stopped from trying to kick our family out.   

or maybe our two fundraisers are a succees, or maybe some other way that is still yet unknown --- but however it happens where years down the road, we are still getting to live here,in our family's home of over 60years.. that our history of all that we have in the home still exists..

 that NONE of our history gets lost during their attempts to try to evict us from our home. 

we keep envisoning that somehow our battle has been won, and that somehow we have managed to buy back the home from those people who had bought it from my ex .. and now, now with strength and continuity of the history of our home, and it's healing that it provides us, we are then finally able to give forth again ,, and share that strength we get from our home .. and finally feel safe enough to be able to give back healing to others again from within our home - throughout the many years ahead!

... ... and our living room is now open again to being used as a small but comfortable meditation hall, or a healing dance space, or as a private yoga or private bodymind listening space, both for those visits but also a space for us to make healing videos to teach from within in. but most importantly, a safe place for us that means so much to us that we can then share with others as we invite others over to also heal and learn and benefit from what our home gives us. . 

. once a long time ago i had a visionof walking through the living room in this flowing robe dress, barefoot, both after during &before a dsy of healing. Unfortunately all kinds of obstacles come through to block this vision ... but i still keep feeling it.  

the vision keeps chanting to me, that this ability to use our home to help heal will reappear... that we will get this home back, finally feeling safe and secure within this space that means so much to us again, finally able to heal from within the space we so value and treasure and love again .... with its strength again..

everytime i envision the future on these exercises, i still keep seeing myaelf having this home space that we treasure so much, to be allowed to rest and reset and recharge in, even years from now..

 My innner brain or being and body and spirit know how easy it would be to have this vision come true -- bc its just a matter of finding somoeone who is willing to fund it or finding folks to find the fundraisers for this vision to be a success. 

 ..but I admit it is confusing to me -- bc even though I admit I often find myslf smiling .. as my body, mind and spiriti deeply FEELS this future --

 but this also ocnfuses me .. bc my logic brain goes : wait, how can this be, when right now we are currently fighting in the courts an eviction situation from those people who bought the home from my ex..  

bc right at this moment , we dont even have enough to give them funds for this current level of rent they are now imposing on us....

and yet when we do these visioon exercises -- that is still what we envison and it still leaves me with the big goody smile .. ( i even videod the smile and put it up on youtube to try to share the glow of joy and happiness that these visions give me..along with some other videos of sharing the tears that come from this battle/ struggle we are having with these people who currently have bought the home from my ex :/. )

my brain starts wondering , how can I have such visions, how can I have such faith? Is it that we will find soemone on here? -- who is willing to help out? or is it that somehow our fundraiser will spontaneously start to be effective?

 these internal block or doubt want to keep sneaking in.  

I dont want to chase after the goal - like the rumi quote says - but i alao dont want to be complacent, like the show i just watched warned about... I want us to be inviting and to create a safe apace for this vision to materialize..

amd i keep thinkig I am doing that, but then just after I am smiling really big big big, rhe following day something happens externally that leaves me thinking I must be in denial or be delusional, and I start the spiral wondering if I should distrust the vision that leaves feeling so happy?

    i keep hoping if i listen enough i will figure out how to remember the wisdoms enough to actuall help the vision to unfold all the way.  

 i think i need to go bavk & relisten to everything again.  

but in the meantime, we ask that you please invite our vision to also exist in your own reality as well... so that if enough of us allow & emcoruage this vision to exist, then maybe the vision will indeed be allowed to find us 

and the vision that keeps overriding the current perception of our immediate reality with this struggle we are having with these folks who bought the home from my ex will be overcome ...and we will get through....

if you can help us make this vision a reality? IF someone reading this, if YOU are the other component of this vision.. if you are the other component that is seeking the chance to help us and our family to help save/buy bavk our familys home, 

                  then I do so hope you find us as soon as possible...

 -- written by the Krin member of the KrinEagleEstela Family

         - Envisioning & Hoping for Our Garden back..  

the words we had come up, 

were the words of : healing, hope, peace, love. rejuvenation and the sound of joy.... gratitude...

thank you folks who read these thoughts of what we shared of our story.

  thank you for the mental and emotional support.. gratitude that we have one another! 

GiveSendGo/HopingforaGarden

the loneliness of dating sites

I have no idea why I go on there to find financial friends for the family ..  or for Angel investors

Actually I know exactly why because somehow I think it's because I got brainwashed by either society or old fashioned morals and morries or something to do with some societal belief

Some societal belief that women are  or that how as a woman I am unable to financially provide or care for my family that way 

That all I ma good for is to give caring loving healing attention for the people I care about

Of course one could look at it from that negative perspective or make it as I'm being a healer..

Am I an actual healer? I don't know..

That seems like a really big claim to make...

Find out for yourself:

18003209643

Leave a time for me to call you back.

But I guess why I find i a lonely place.is because I am not actual looking for a spouse or a significant other or soul mate. 

Already found those.

Not interested in that..

I just want to be able to find people who care enough about us to provide finacial care for our attention 

why we need 500k

This was written for a possible investor but I think it sums it up fairly quickly:

Basically for about 500k -600k, one could in theory

1) buy my ex out of his share of the home (plus pay off the mortgage) before he forces us to sell the whole house in 2023 when kiddo turned 18,

along with

 2) hopefully have enough leftover to get supplies needed for kiddo & I to renovate the house and convert the garage into a studio living space that can later be rented out to cover the land taxes (and to build a shed with which to store the stuff we want to keep that is currently in the garage) 

------all while filming the entire process and sharing it up on YouTube or some such like venue---,

3) and redo the garden into a regenerative vertical edible Oasis (which could also be rented out to private yoga instructors or such like?),

4)while also getting enough camera phones, laptops, and tripods to film/stream the entire process and put it up on YouTube or such like?

and

5) and hopefully just enough leftover to make sure we had a passenger etrike with which to be able to maneuver our little elderly grandmother around town without us having to have a driver's license or car insurance or a car (this is crucial bc one of our biggest obstacles is not having an independent way of getting around the city and this would open up a lot of doors for us)

The philanthropy part would be allowing kiddo, grandma & I to continue to be allowed to live in the main part of the home ,

allowing us to create a space that would teach others about symbiotic regenerative living through our videos ideally?

And then allowing us to slowly over the decades buy back your portion of the estate (at a reasonable ROI) from whatever profits get made from the videos, renting out the garage studio & gardens and such like -- until it is all paid off plus a reasonable ROI for you...

Any thoughts on our proposal?

IF you have the funds to even consider the option, I sincerely hope you will at least consider it.

We would still need to meet you in person if you are up for it because we would need to know that we could trust you,

 and that you wouldn't be screwing us over, because this home means the world to us .. 

and the idea of making a mistake of going into contract with the wrong person is terrifying..

To ensure an accurate memory of what we say to one another, we will be audio recording the entire conversation both for your safety and our own.

If you are an open-minded person who might care about our little family, then perhaps you might be a good fit for this endeavour....

More ideas for how we would like to use our home to tell our story and help others at
Www.envisioningourgoals.blogspot.com
www.hopingforagarden.com

Much obliged for your even taking the time to read this

Humble bow..,
The krineteagle family

Please read our other posts for all of our detailed  thoughts/ideas we have for how we would like to accomplish everything.

And for ways we would like to create an abundance of us and the land giving back to the world around us with your help of course .

please help us save our home !!

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Relationship Seeking:

LTR, Friends, Travel Companion, Pen Pals, Just Curious, Other, Celibate Relationship, Celibate Marriage

Spoken Languages:

English

Marital Status:

Divorced

Spiritual Beliefs:

Conscious/Spiritual

Dietary Preference:

I eat anything

Drink?

I drink socially

Tobacco?

I don’t smoke

420 Friendly:

No marijuana for me

Often Exercise:

1-2 days/week

Energy Level:

Average

Education:

Some college

How Green?

Medium Green (mostly green lifestyle)

Political Views:

Prefer not to say

Have Children?

I have one child

Want Children?

Other

Living situation:

My kids live with me full-time

Willing to relocate:

No

Sun Sign:

Not sure

Rising Sign:

Not Sure

Moon Sign:

Not sure

Chinese Sign:

Not Sure

Ethnicity:

Other

Height:

5’0-5’3 (1.52 m - 1.62 m)

Body Type:

Slim/Slender

Ayurvedic Body Type:

Not sure

Weight:

Less than 100 lbs (45.45 kg)

Hair Color:

Brown

Hair Style:

Medium curly/wavy

Eye Color:

Brown eyes

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Other

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Describe yourself (personality/attitude/passions/beliefs):

I am trying to find a relationship with a spirit/soul who would also be willing to co-own our home with us. ( the moderators do not want me to go into much, if any, detail because they want to avoid classified ads and would prefer i stick with what I am looking for in a romantic partner. -- But see that is exactly what I am looking for in a romantic partner:: Is the person who would actually be willing to help us with our dream,

who would be willing to buy my ex out and helps us do our dream to convert the property into a spiritual, sustainable, regenerative edible, zero waste oasis

I need someone who would be willing to help make our dream and vision we have for this very special little spot in the earth come true

Letting us and allowing and helping us to convert it into a place that we dream about for this tiny spot on this earth where individuals can come to learn about body awareness with a slight spiritual awareness, regenerative gardening, symbiotic living with nature, and the city all at the same time .... showing that it CAN be done INSIDE the city on this very special spot of this earth that holds so so so much incredible meaning to me and my little family (grandma, me and kiddo)

Ideally with the help of sharing our videos that we take of everything along the way, maybe teaching and inspiring others along the way?

That is the exact relationship I want.. that is the partner I want. Someone who will make it possible

and allow for us to do this..

Although I do wish I could be friends with so many people on here (if they would allow for us to be so),

unfortunately the only kind of person I would actually be willing to be romantically involved with us is the kind of person who would actually be willing to help us to achieve our dream for our very particular piece of land that means so extremely much to our little family.

You dont have to live with us, just be willing to be someone who maybe shares some of our values or who wants to help encourage and support this dream. Sharing a connection to us.

so we can stop feeling quite so alone in our endeavors -- which sadly we often do since most people want us to do this dream somewhere else, outside the city.,or at their place... But we seek someone who will allow us to do our dream HERE, please!

here, in this city, on this land that has the story of my family are deeply connected to.

we really need folks who will actively cheer us on and help make our vision a reality please please please.

....


Something i have found emphasized on many other folks profiles is their connection to their spiritual journey and hopes of finding someone who will share in that experience with them.

Upon rereading my own profile, i realized how much of our own spiritual journey was left out of our description of ourselves for others to know where we stood on such matters.

So i added an extra paragraph at the end discussing some of my own personal journey.

But to use one of kiddos favorite concepts taken from a movie he loved when he was little (Dr. Strange), I think our philosophy can be summed up in that.. of how "each part of understanding is all but a small understanding of the whole... "

And we all share in coming together to criss cross our paths and journeys to weave together to make that whole. And together the tapestry grows and changes shape..

Together the music evolves and is experienced at mutliple levels and dimension.

It is not just the two of us..but the ALL of us combined.

something I do try to emphasize to my son, is how each of us brings new insights and wisdoms to the table..

There is always something to learn from the other. There is always new insight and wisdom to be gained and beauty and truths to be see from each interaction and each experience and each observation.

May we be able to recognize in each other what the other brings...

...


my family (my son and mother) mean the world to me, plus the dream we have to help find a way to save our family's property, all while hoping to promote and encourage us all each helping each other and others to feel safe and create a world of compassionate inter-harmony

Note because this is important - in all that I do in life- i do try to share all of what I experience and learn in life with my family. Ie. Whatever ideas and thoughts you share with me, I will wish to share with them. This bothers some people who only want to share their thoughts only with me, but it is important to me that I be allo edtp share every thought with them as well..

I am but a small part of a bigger whole (my little family).. and our little family is bit a part of an even bigger whole that includes you and all the world that exists.

...

Hmm.. I can be a bit rebellious at times? though I do try to aim to do so in a positive way.

In an ideal world we would like to be accepting and appreciate of all people , but I admit I do have a small desire to surround our beings with other accepting and appreciative people who actually accept and appreciate us and our family the way we are,

and who will accept others the way they are.l as well.

We are very passionate about our hopes and dreams.

Our family's hope is
1) share life with each other,

2) to be able to document the lessons we learn life with our audio recordings of our conversations, our videos of the transformations and with kiddo's photographs,

and to communicate, & share all that we learn as we learn it so that others might also share in the journey some day

3) to practice as close to zero waste as we are comfortable with, and

4) finding ways to embark on our projects hopefully in a way thay will help us to save & transform our family's property into a regenerative symbiotic harmonious little archeological food forest oasis that will both keep our little family's story alive for generations to come but which will also teach and help others along the way, we hope..
Which will hopefully inspire others and leave them feel connected to us.

(We want someone who share our values and who will help us do this vision on THIS little spot on the earth which we are deeply connected to and where we get so much of our strength from. (Not another spot somewhere else..but HERE where I am connected to the land and the story behind it)

So if you or if you know anyone else who might be interested in being connected to our family in this way --please please please let us know, please! We are desperate to find this person who will help us with our dream.

Which we would pay back as the vision we have for the home unfolds and starts to become sustainable....and hopefully even regenerative! :D

-- our hope : that our family's connection to you and this little spot on the earth should one day give back to the world with it's story and lessons we have learned and with the inspirations we come across over the years

It is a very tiny tiny tiny tiny piece of the world, but no matter how small it is, we believe if you and I learn to coexist with the world the way it is, then the world will gives back and provide ever so much more in quite a symbiotic harmonious way?

We firmly believe in Permaculture's Three Principles: Human Care, Earth Care, Future care ..

We also believe in Zero Waste if possible, and we now keep that in mind when we buy anything now.

We also firmly believe that our family's story is a very special story is truly worth saving. And we would like to combine our story with your own story.. but to do that here..

we have this goal to make both the palace we are connected to and our lives to be all turned into a teaching way of being... of how to practice living with nature right here where we are..and to each other and ourselves in a harmonious co-symbiotic regenerative way... Despite our being in a city -- but showing the world that even inside a city one can find little spot of peacefulness to rejuvenate in.

We want to creat with you a small city space right where we are with an edible food forest oasis that we can harvest from to help feed both ourselves and the nearby neighborhood,

It has been a strange existential journey trying to finding funding/resources/and backers who would be ready to help to help do this. Lots of nibbles but now we need to make it actually happen somehow.

But

We have appreciated all the kindness and support that we have come across to try to accomplish this goal in the way we envision.

I admit I am less interested in a sexual partner as everyone else is (as I tend to be a bit asexual despite how much I once upon a time used to love sensuality) , but I have also started to give up hope of finding someone willing to help us on our journey just to helps us..

So i have come to accept that you will eventually need for this all to evolve into a more intimate relationship over time., But I admit I do fear your making that a requirement...., When I am ready, I will open up and bloom for someone again, but my first priority right now is to feel our dream and our main hope and goal is life will be kept safe,please .

But yes, I am looking for a deep connection with whomever helps us on our journey and our dreams.

Maybe one day our little family project will expand outwards into becoming a little non-profit that helps to convert other similar lots into edible healing oasi for others to heal in if all goes well,

But for now , I long for the friends who will help us to open our hearts and our beings to the universe.

I am looking for that special someone who will help me save this spot of the world that holds so much meaning to me and who will help me to convert them into the vision we have for them,

They say who we seek is seeking us. Please person, please find us.

Please help us to create a little world with a mini foodforest/edible oasis/regenerative feel to it -- with the space that holds so much meaning to me personally please.

Be a part of the evolving learning we are doing.

Btw, We hope to document our live in hopes to that maybe it will help other to learn on their own journey all that we have wanted to learn .. so please be okay with us recording the whole process of our evolution.

Maybe share our journey learning about communication/empathy/conflict resolution

We love edible flowers in our yard, and enjoy sharing our food garden. (Maybe you can find us by 'hopingforagarden'? We would love at least that teeny tiny bit of connection with you, if you allowed it? Wistful sigh of hope...

We photograph and video the world as our way of functioning and breathing, and always have a camera with us -- it is our breathing tool to make it through each moment and to be able to function.

NVC (nonviolent communication) Active Listening and Empathy skills

We do not throw things away, but find ways to save things for art projects.

When the time is right, and when the funds are available, a shed/storage place will be built offsite to store items for easier access for both me and other artists to use the material.

By the way, we know this bothers some people, but i treat my kid as an equal partner in all these ventures, (always have ever since he since the beginning) since even though he is still a kid or more not quite yet adult status, when it comes to these ventures, I am his equal in learning. we learn from each other.

And I do not want anyone discriminating against him or treating him lesser because of his age, sex, race, or ANY stereotype.

If anything ever happens to us, we hope this project will continue & help others in its story.

We try to be openminded and accepting and appreciative of others and eager to learn from and share what we have learned.

and eager to find others who will be open to encouraging us to pursue & acccomplish these dreams & goals for wanting to use our own land to help to create these harmonious symbiotic relationships with the many worlds around us. :)

Describe the type of person you'd like to meet:

 

inner wisdom

In a dream world, yes sure we would love to find soemone who yes had the money to be a backer in helping to save our properties to help transform them into regenerative land that both teaches and helps to create an abundant oasis for both those who help out on the land but also to others who are in need.

But i also wish to find souls that we admire or who inspire us or who shar some viewpoint about life that we wish to encourage in our life.

yes sure, we desperately want to save our home & pray that we will find a relationship with someone who will allow us to keep being able to live in our home and do our projects

but we also need people in our lives who will help us to feel safe enough to connect to our own inner wisdom

& patience.

Somebody who believes in communication and empathy and active listening and body listening or is at least willing to allow us to learn all that

Someone who is aware that though I may deeply need to be hugged and loved, that it may be awhile before I heal enough to be my old sensuality.

True, I do not know when that will be.


My past tells me it will occur naturally if and when I feel fully safe and secure and empowered again, but I do not know when that will be.

I know that eventually I will be there.

Right now though what I hope for is friendships whom I CAN feel safe with..

People we can trust.

that our dreams are safe, that we are accepted and loved,

who will encourage us to do our projects,

That feeling of reassurance and delight in our silliness & learning

Describe the ideal relationship:

 

ideally, I want a relationship with a person who would actually be willing to help us to fund and or do our projects,

But kiddo & I also need people who are happy and content just to hang out with us as well

valuing our company and our dialogue if we interact with you..

and you treat us more as a close sister or cousin or close friend..

not actually needing for connection to me be a sexual relationship.. But content with just allowing us to be friends with you? I need that first in life.

in fact, ideally you would allow me to be a celibate monk? At least until I am ready to be something different, but in meantime I need you to just be happy with our just being

admittedly eventually it would be nice to allow for the space for the connection to evolve into even more someday..

But it would need to be someone who would be willing to allow for my passion for recording the world and for my connection to my family's property and recognizing that they form a connection not just to me, but also to my family as well.

That we are all parts of a whole.

What should a great date consist of?

 

Spendin time with you and my family in the garden

discussing science and or religion, spirituality or philosophy, the world around us and or history

and well whatever other mjsc bits of insights and wisdoms or observations or pondering our inner souls wish to share with one another

An topic that comes into being.

Or even just enjoying a peaceful quiet enjoying of each other's existence,maybe just meditating or doing some simple yoga, Qigong,taichi or some other form of bodymind listening?

Either way,
allowing me to simply be quietly purring away content like the kitty cat gets to do -- letting and even encouraging me to audio record the whole beautiful conversation of delight & joy & being

Describe your work/business and what it means to you:

 

right now my job mostly consists of caring for elderly mom and raising a homeschooling teenager, while trying to keep our lives afloat until we are ready to go forward in create an online prescence to share ideas we would like to encourage being shared...

ideally, some day we would like to share our very unusual edible garden
teach body listening
helping kiddo with design work
And ideally the investor will allow us to
convert the garage into a studio to be rented out to those who want to be experience a food forest oasis/retreat inside the middle of a city

Along with maybe renting out the garden as a yoga space or small event teaching space or where artists,writers, body practitioners, small music groups could rent out?

ideally we would make podcasts and do more with sharing our journey on youtube though currently we are not quite ready to go full force just yet on that.

not sure if we are allowed to share our links, but if you contact us, there is a lovely little link to a small sharing of a conversation we made several years ago when kiddo was little on the topic of empathy that I love to share..
Or if we could share the other video experiments we made and wanted to share, we would be very honored to be allowed to share it with you.

Share something unusual or extra special about yourself:

 

i video / take pictures of well, everything... all of life.. esp if it involves a transition or change of any kind... we also live in symbiosis with the tech to create a synthetic back up memory to our limited human memory banks. (this is a problem for some people, so you will need to be comfortable with this if you want to be around us. Especially after mom started developing memory issues, we have found it extrememly useful but even before kiddo and I found it extremely useful should there ever be even the mildest of conflicts, and it also has allowed for incredible insight in active listening & perspective learning.

Also unusual: i treat kids like equal human beings and only respect the other adults who do the same and who never treat others as lesser human beings because of age, sex, race, or abilities.

i know how to cook without a recipe ((apparantly not every one is willing to do this..though i agree, having a rough idea of the ingredients does make a difference))

i have been body listening my whole life

btw.. there is a question i often get asked in terms of the land we are trying to save.. and i realized that the answer is kind of something that leaves kiddo and I quite unique: most people want to sell off their city land to buy something OUTSIDE of the city.. not us.

we want to show how one can live a zero-waste, regenerative, food forest oasis sort of way in a symbiotic harmony with both the land and the people around them INSIDE a city, in just your typical everyday neighborhoods regardless of whether they have an HOA, or just whereever they are in the city. Our immediate need is to save our own home this year but eventually we would like to save other places connected to our family as well -- which would consists of 5 different sections in five very different parts of the town. Eventually the goal would be to save ALLLLLL FIVE parts. Three of which will could eventually pay for itself in a regenerative way with the vision we have for them.. while the other two more are so small,.they would more basically be used as a storage back up places and a free food forest for the local neighborhood more as a gift to the surrounding neighborhood, which are in some not so great food desert parts of town.

But what makes us unique I think is that we don't just want ANY piece of random land that we can work and that will bring money back.

We want to work the land that MEANS something to us. That we have a history with.

That holds an emotional meaning to us.

I know many many people will not be able to relate to this, but This land is more a part of our story then any human being ever..

and so we want to tell the story of our evolution of who and how we are using this land as the main tool to do this. THIS land, not some random other piece of new piece of land. but this one that holds our history of who, and how, and why we are the way we are.

it also includes the where we come from and what we are as well. it is a very very special land to us.. so we please request that you show respect to our wish and understand our reason well enough to not ask us: "but why not just sell and go somewhere else where you can own MORE,. and where it might be EASIER to do what you want to do. "

I have now explained why this land and not some other. ---- It isn't about ease. or having more. ---- it is about taking what we already have, on land that actually holds a deep meaning and a deep connection to our very essence,

and showing how it can be done on what is already here. inside OUR city.

For example, one of our most favorite places in the big bustling city of New York, is this small little rose/flower garden right next to a big street with tons of traffic and people, but when you walk into that little garden, your world becomes transformed and you enter another world, and your mind all but blocks out the noise surrounding the garden. you have entered a new world.. a respite .. a place to rest, recover, recoooperate, right then in the middle of the city. a little haven .. a regenerative haven that connects you back to earth and yourself.

now that is the dream... to create that in a place that holds meaning to US .

We want a relationship with someone who understands and accepts our dream and what we value.. which is why we have spent so much time trying to explain what we care about.

I so hope you will help us to do that on this land that means so so so so much to us.. please
thank you!

Even if it's just be being a friend,

or by following along on our journey through one of the online avenues we created, or by actually becoming an actual partner with us on this journey

ahh.. couple last detail that makes us rather unique.. um.. we do things SLOW..

like really super slow. so you will need a ton of patience with us. like it will be a test of your patience and acceptance levels.

final bit: it is a very long story, but I can no longer can drive a car .. so there's that...

And sadly, our world doesn't get to fully be functional again until we one day have access to a way of becoming independently mobile again.. so in any one wants to gift us an etrike (which doesnt require a driver's license) that we could drive mom around town in , that would be a humongous blessing and quite the gift of a type of functionality that so many take so deeply for granted.

When it was just kiddo and I, walking on foot or bus or bike was one thing, but with mom, whom we cannot leave alone at home anymore, something with 3 wheels is needed.
Sigh. Sigh.. sigh......

What do you like to do for fun/activities?

 

video, plant edible plants in my own garden, listening to my son converse with people, sharing life with my familly, eating yummy organic/sustainable meals, watching documentaries/films with my family, curling up with my family

What does being *conscious* mean to you?

 

being aware of one's body and one's emotions and why you think a certain way and being aware of the people around you, their emotions, and why they think the way they do, being aware of the plants/life forces/life all around you,

How long and what motivated you to be on a conscious path?

 

a buddhist father, a mother who loves gardening, my son, every darn event and experience in our lives...

What types of healing modalities do you practice or would you like to learn?

 

body listening: mostly shoulders and back. (similar to a combination of reiki, rosenmethod, tui nai, jin shin, trigger, passive joint movement, swedish, deep tissue, shiatsu, active listening, )
would love to learn more about conflict transformation, active listening, empathy, mediating, and other massage styles, interested in all forms of healing and listening.

How are you environmentally conscious & what are you doing to help the planet?

 

attempting to practice a form of zero waste, composting, attempting to teach others about more environmentally harmonious ways of living, ,trying to convert our garden into a mostly edible and sustainable garden, though i mostly only work with 'exotic'gereen since I seem to kind of not know how to do regular vegetables :/, sigh

What are you most passionate about?

 

1)being able to be with my family, 2)recording & documenting as much of life as I possibly can,
3)communication, 4) saving my home and our family's story, 5)edible gardening, 6)zero-waste

What is the top priority in your life right now?

 

my mom and son, saving our home,
and sharing our online project ideas with hopes that it will reach and inspire others in some small way with us sharing who we are as we are as we evolve and learn and grow ever so slowly and hopefully with your connection to us as well.

Where do you see yourself 5 years from today?

 

after saving & transforming the properties with vision we have for it,
maybe learning a few languages and maybe traveling some with and documenting those travels?

What type of travel do you enjoy?

 

ALL -+ but ONLY if we have a working camera with enough battery and storage space to video and record the entirety of it all.

2021 update: I also will not be doing any travelling until after we have saved our family's propety and it is safely in a trust so that should anything happen to us on our travels, it will be ensured that the project will continue on without us. feel free to ask to see a draft of the project we would like to work on for our properties once we get the funds to accomplish it.

Describe your ideal honeymoon:

 

depends on many factors

What types of books/authors do you enjoy and why?

 

Books on communication, self awareness, leadership, conflict transformation, food forests, regenerative practices, fantasy, sci-fi,

What/who are some of your favorite movies/films/actors?

 

long list

What kind of music moves you?

 

early baroque, jazz, linda sterling, harp, synth, blues, 80's, red priest, russian classicals, musicals-gershwin, gypsy kings, long list..

What kind of pets do you have? (Names)?

 

officially: one queen indoor/outdoor cat,
unofficially outside there are two opossums (well at least the opossums seem to be living off of our land)(though 2021 update, now it seems to be raccoons that took over no longer the oppossums), a thousand squirrels (actually that would be interesting to count to see how many there are actually are), periodically some bluejays when they migrate through, a couple of cardinals live outside, a few rockdoves, and a family of determined mocking birds who take all the grapes and mulberries each year, a gazillion snails and the lizards and garden snakes that eat them.
okay, none of them are pets.. they just all coexist with us.

Update 2022 - we also now have a little half blind probably quite old little chihuahua co-existing with us who has added a new dynamic to our lives

Do you support any charitable organizations?

 

IF I had the money, there are several educators on Patreon whom I would support and the Inga Foundation, Geoff Lawton's Permaculture Institute, Dan Barber's Work, other land regenerative projects.

What makes you smile?

 

Kiddo, mom & I sharing events together.
Yummy meals,
When somebody lets me splurge on edible plants
When my family is together
When I am not worried about money or making our dreams come true
When I feel able to share our world with others

Is there anything else you'd like to share?

 

I wish I could share with you some of the links we like to share neat insights and thoughts on.

Even if you dont think we would be a good match, I hope you will still allow us to be connected even just as acquaintances or as friends..

We are all always connected, but it would be nice to also be allowed to share views and thoughts & learn from you even off this site.

what I would love to have you ask about

 

I know many on here are opposed to social media but do you know of a better way to reach folks who might not otherwise have a way to be exposed to new and interesting ideas or perspectives?
We would like to someday inspire- and that medium exists and allows for an interconnected tapestry of perspectives and ideas so wanted to be a part of that sharing of ideas and thoughts into the medium of souls.
I forgot I was not allowed to post any links to any of our online projects that talk about our journey, so they were taken down, but I would love it if you asked about them.

My son and I started have experimented and over the years created various different youtube channels experiments nd a few facebook pages to share the different aspects of our journey and facsinating evolution & creation of ideas with other in hopes of inspiring others..

from our gardening/cooking journey, to our bodylisteningawarness journey,
to our overall homeschooling/life/learning journey.

We even have a couple of twitter pages that we rarely post on but they exist for those who like that medium..

and even have a Patreon page and makesupport page which I do hope you will ask about, both with links to most of it in hopes of sharing our creations.. .

All in hopes of creating our own large interweaving network & connection to the soul & spirits that interconnects with other peoples networks and their own webs helping to interconnect the world into a beautiful synergistic tapestry of harmonious or intweaving interconnections... or something like that,

bit of amused laughter at our strange journey.

much love being sent out to you.. I am grateful for our connection to you..

Thank you!!!

what would you like most?

 

I know on here I should have some spiritual answer

but that is ever ongoing journey that involves our whole entire lives

Right now this particular year,

what I would like most is unfortunately very worldy. to find a relationship with someone who actually wants to help us to save our family's home so we can create on it the vision we envision --This is the the first priority in a relationship we seek .. you must be willing to help us with OUR dream.
Sorry if that makes me seem like a narcissist or selfish but I need someone who cares about our dream please...and who wants to help us make it happen. That is the kind of person I truly need in our life right now.

I need someone who cares about helping us to achieve our dreams to turn our home and our garden turns into an edible oasis where artists and bodymind teachers and writers and other souls from around the world can come visit and rejuvenate in.

You need to be willing to help me & my son with our goals.

After that,maybe some help us save the rest of our family's dreams & transforming all the spaces we wish to change into an edible oasis (i will be honest, the whole vision includes shaping many places into places that would be giving back in abundance both passively through all the teaching mediums as we share what we are working on and teach others in the city)

Another thing we would like most is to Be connected to other folks who also encourage edible gardening, body listening, and even just simple awareness and kindness and patience and compassion and an allowing and encouraging of the world to be an interconnected rejuvenating safe place to coexist in.

-Being allowed to documenting our family's design journeys. -

I don't know if they will let me keep these FAQ but they seem to be important to anyone who is consider a relationship with us.

FAQ: in total, how much land do I want to transform : as little as it sounds, even there are different pieces of it, all together it is only about an acre. But our home which is the highest priority right now.. it is only a quarter of an acre. -- Remember this is INSIDE a city.

Next FAQ:
why not sell and buy land outside the city...? Several reasons.... One bc we want to show that this CAN be done INSIDE the city. We have actually seen different variations ofour dream/vision inside different cities, but we have our own variation we would like to do.

Also. Bc the whole of the pieces tell a story, our familys story.. And we would like to share the evolution of that story. And we would like for you to be a part of that story, please.


There is a blog called envisioningourgoals dot blogspot that answers tons of questions and talks about various obstacles we need help with.. though i am not sure how findable it is without the link. So you will have to write to us to get the link.

We hope you will choose to have a relationship with us, even if it is just as a supportibe friend

But even more so, we hope you will share our dream with us on an intimate level.

Note: intimate does not necessarily mean sexual.. it means on mental, emotional, psychic level .

Spiritual History

 

Grew up with a Buddhist Father, (who had once had our living room be a Meditation Hall with only pillows amd one rocking chair as furniture)

As a child, on the weekend he would take me to many different meditation halls and let me hold theoretical conversations with the different head monks of each place while he interacted with them.

One of my most profound moments and first enlightenment experiences was sitting on a snow bank next to a hot spring meditating & communing with nature outside as a 4 year old while my family sat inside meditating all day long. (At four, i found being inside a hall not quite as connecting as being outside in nature) ..

Since then I have had four other just as equally profound moments of wholeness and connection to something beyond itself and many smaller moments though just as profound in their own way.

Let's see what else, random bits... In college , I took several religious studies classes on Buddhism.

Around 21, I had some events occur which brought me to an Eastern Orthodox commune up in Alaska,where a priest who had studied both Zen Buddhism and Eastern Orthodoxy was staying at. On the second night there, he stayed up all night to translate vocabulary so I could discuss Buddhist ideas with the Orthodox terminology that was used at that commune

While up there in Alaska, the adventure continued on after the commune to a fishing boat which took me to Kodiak -- where I had many many many even more profound spiritual moments while living "homeless" on that island.

From the first night homeless , to a later morning i "woke up realizing the profoundness of our journey of being in Alaska at all and the beauty of the journey that had brought us there, after staying up all night on a illegal island,

to the beautiful experiences I had living for a week with a small handful of nuns on a different moss covered island that was off the main travel paths,

Although I may not seem as spiritual as some bc I dont seem to emphasize that part of the journey outwardly... Inwardly it is still important part even as we have been focusing now on saving my family's property..

The journey does still continue even while we try to do this.

Though probably from a different angle now

- both as a single mother interacting with a very old soul coping with being in a new life (ie . when kiddo was 3, instead it felt like i was an interacting with a 3000 year old sage in a 3 yr old body and even as he has gotten older it has been about helping him come to terms with the limitations of the world around him when he gets frustrated or confused of why it doesnt it have all the same understandings that he has)

Mixing that all in and combining it all with all the new 'disabilities' I now have....

And mixing that with the existential quandaries that watching a parent go through dimensia up close can do..
(It is nonstop grief and recogniztion of the frailty of the human mind with a soul deep underneath it all)

The journey has only gotten more profound, interesting and insightful....

From the twilight zone experience of how our my ex left after 20 years changing all that we knew about people and life...

To the world experiencing covid and the changes around us it made

to our own expereinces caring for my mother confronting and learning more about myself and why certain parts of me existed..

To raising a child who was so different and unique who became the teacher ..
... where i had to "unlearn" all the myths and theories about how children were "supposed to be"....

To the journey of trying to figure out how to find someone who will help or share our dream to save this place to use it as a place to continue to teach and awaken....


Learning a spiritual journey that includes it all..

Trying to stay connected to the wisdom of patience and the beauty of the journey along the way.

Bodymind Listening

 

When I was a little girl, I could not hear music without dances being constantly choreographed in my head. Dance was my expression, my way of being.

Then some events occured .. and my mind became paralyzed with that world only sneaking through to me at brief random moments...

Also starting from before I can remember, though dad used to say even as young as two, the way I connected to folks was different.. through touch, hearing their minds through muscles and people's body language ... When I placed my hand on someone's back I heard people on a totally different level then words.. I "heard" the movement the conversations of their muscles. I processed it as a sort of sound only without sound but it might as well have been sound.

For years, I never charged people for this touch bc it was my way of connecting to the world until one day I was in need of a healing touch myself and it took me two weeks before I could find someone who could do the same for me that I had been doing for others my entire life. Suddenly I started to become aware of being taken advantage. I went to a school to learn how to utilize this skill professionally, but never could quite accept the coldness of the way the connection was taught despite its healing nature.

So I let my license expire and tried to utilize all that I have learned in life in other different ways.

I am still learning how to incorporate how I am, and the knowledge I have, and the abilities I have, in a world that asks for me to relate to it in a different way then I would like to be..

The journey is long.

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